At least I would be if it wasn't for poor Papa. It
wouldn't have happened if it hadn't been for what we did."
Wherever they started, whatever round they fetched, it was to this
that they returned.
And always Jim met it with the same answer:
"'Tisn' what we doon; 'tis what 'e doon. An' annyhow it had to bae."
Every week Rowcliffe came to see her and every week Jim said to him:
"She's at it still and I caan't move 'er."
And every week Rowcliffe said: "Wait. She'll be better before long."
And Jim waited.
He waited till one afternoon in February, when they were again in the
stable together. He had turned his back on her for a moment.
When he looked round she was gone from her seat on the cornsacks. She
was standing by the window-sill with the bottle of chlorodyne in her
hand and at her lips. He thought she was smelling it.
She tilted her head back. Her eyes slewed sidelong toward him. They
quivered as he leaped to her.
She had not drunk a drop and he knew it, but she clutched her bottle
with a febrile obstinacy. He had to loosen her little fingers one by
one.
He poured the liquid into the stable gutter and flung the bottle on to
the dung heap in the mistal.
"What were you doing wi' thot stoof?" he said.
"I don't know. I was thinking of Papa."
After that he never left her until Rowcliffe came.
Rowcliffe said: "She's got it into her head he's going to die, and she
thinks she's killed him.
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